Here I am again with an all new type of blog for you. This is way more personal then I would normally get, but hell, you're all my family in one way or another. I want to be real and open with you, because life gets crazy we all know this.
I have a few questions for you all before I start:
Do you love yourself ?
Do you love someone else?
Are you where you want be in life ?
Be honest with yourself here. No bull shit, because you don't have time for that. For real! You don't!
This is where shit is gonna get real. I want to tell you my story so you know where I am coming from. I am an open book as I have been through so much. Most people just know the basic need to know stuff about me. Nobody asks me about what I have seen in my life because they know it can be hard for me to talk about.
I am 29 almost 30 come the 2nd of July. I am from a very small town and grew up without my dad in the picture so I grew up knowing a woman could do it all on her own. My mom did the best she could with me along with her family. I lived with my grandparents for a lot of my life because my mom was hard at work making a living for us. I thank her for all her hard work with me all of the time.
I suffer from seasonal depression as well as anxiety. I have struggled with weight and self love for years. I was picked on in school to the point where I had to change schools. I would not go to school because I hated everyone for all the shit that was caused. I have had many crappy thoughts but never followed through on them cause I knew what it would it would do to my family.
Right now I am going through my first huge breakup. I can say that I am hurt and broken up about it. I spent over a year with this man and I wanted to marry him because I thought he was the one, but things can change in the blink of an eye. This breakup made me realize so much. I was losing myself in the US that we had made. I was hating myself because I had given up on so much. It sounds stupid, but when you find someone and you feel like you have to change for them, it's hard not to. I changed to only find out he loved the girl he met, but I felt the need to change anyway. I know now to never change the fun loving girl I am to make someone love me because it wont ever work out for the better. The best thing you can do is be true to yourself and love yourself no matter what. We all have flaws and if the person doesn't love you for that, they are not the one for you. This relationship took a huge tole on me and my depression I am here now telling myself I am blessed and worthy of a great life.
Self worth is truly how much you love yourself and what you think you deserve in of life. If you're anything like me, those thoughts do go up and down with my moods, but you always know deep down what you deserve. We all have bumps and slumps in the road and all we can do is pick ourselves up and move on. Life can suck yes but life is what you make of it! Love who you are and embrace every damn moment of it because who knows what can happen. I will not lie, it's a lot of damn work but it's so worth it. Get up, leave that comfort zone, look beyond it and only there will you find your answers. It's scary as hell but you will thank yourself in the end.
I want everyone to get up and conquer each day with love and purpose. You deserve it. Do what makes you happy. Don't care about what others think. Their opinion doesn't mean shit. Nobody knows you better than you do! Here is a quote that hit me hard today, "No one can open your book half way through and think they know you." And they're right. It's impossible as all hell. NO one has walked in your shoes they have no fuckin' clue the life you have lived.
I am happy I have found so many amazing people in my years. Some I keep closer than others because they're here to help me make something of myself and some are just there as I make my way in this world. I believe every person I have in my life is here for a reason and I love everyone for everything they do for me. I try to make that known because it's important to be grateful. #GlowGetterNation is my home and it's where I feel safe. I am not scared to be myself. These girls are so amazing and came to me when I needed them the most. Younique was my saving grace. It's not about anything besides the sisterhood to me. Being an only child I never had people around hat I felt this close with. These girls are my family and I thank my lucky stars each day for them and my life, even though it's far from perfect.
So until next time my loves, peace and love to you all
Founder: Jade Kent